Outside pressure vs inside pressure

I have a close group of friends back home who I've known for more than ten years! They are my core! I may not have the closest relationship with them now, being more than 2000km away, but I try to keep up, and of course, whenever I'm back home it doesn't feel like months have passed by. It just feels like when we all went for lunch in the Uni's canteen again.

More specifically they are 4 couples, of course, even more specifically they are 4 friends with their corresponding loved ones. Half of them married with babies, the other half is going there. His core group friend is a bit bigger, 9 couples out of which more than half are married (2 with babies), the other ones are together for a long time and there's 3 singles.

It's quite normal to feel the pressure..everyone is around their 30's..you start to have at least 2 weddings per year..(hopefully one wedding per group so that you can use the same dress!!) Also the pressure from the family side starts building up (being you know, the eldest of my generation I should be the first one to do all those things your parents did and you are supposed to do to and the bla bla bla thing all over again). Dealing with the outside pressure is no biggie in reality. You learn how to shrug it off, and you start to not make a big deal out of it. You start to make jokes with your loved one when you happen to get the bouquet at the latest wedding. You don't really see a "sign" that something is definitely going to happen in the near future. What's so special about grabbing some flowers mid-air anyways? You can go to your flower shop down the street, bring them home and do exactly the same. Did unicorns appear? Did pigs fly? No....You shrug it off at dinner parties when someone (usually the married babied ones) say something like:
"Hey, so, when are you two getting together?" or
"So, now who is (insert baby name here) going to play with?"
"You better start making those babies soon, you're (insert your age), better start thinking about it!"
Like I said before you don't really put much into it and whenever it comes you put your bulletproof shield into action. Hell, you even start to have your roll of funny answers or witty comebacks.

The problem is you. Your inner pressure to make your wishes, your dreams and plans come true. It's terrible. The expectations..boy, they just come tumbling down like a house of cards. And the amount of disappointment to oneself is almost unbearable.